when I sat on a couch I would find a pillow to sit with to cover my tummy rolls. I was buying XL clothing at my favourite stores where I used to be an M. I was playing basketball but had no confidence in my game because I was so damn slow and couldn’t get where I knew I needed to be. I was sitting on the couch every night instead of working out and was very unhappy with almost ever aspect of my entire life.
I complained to some people about how I felt and tried to hide it from others, thinking I acted the same as I always had. I think they saw through me but didn’t know exactly how to help. I was trying to get healthy. I had signed up for basketball, had a free gym pass to the YMCA when i worked there and tried to get Ryan to come with me to use his free pass, but I just couldn’t convince myself to do it on my own. Even though I had lost a large amount of weight when I was 19 and knew exactly what I needed to do to feel better about myself. I just couldn’t do it all alone. I had lost about 10 lbs doing it alone but just couldn’t get past there.
I actually don’t remember how it all came about but Jill and I were talking one day and it was decided. We were starting a weight loss blog to help us stay motivated and accountable. If others knew what we were doing, we would have to do it.
Boy did that work for me.
I started running a few times a week with Aline and Jill. Jen, Emma and I were biking, getting ready for our 200km bike ride and I was paying very close attention to my portion sizes, calorie intake and how many calories I was burning. I was still also enjoying life and eating the things that you shouldn’t eat every day, but not eating them everyday. Just on special occasion or when I was truly craving them. I did camp a lot last summer which resulted in a lot of light beer drinking and hamburger eating but when sided with fresh veggies instead fries and other crap, it makes a difference. I also started planning out snacks and meals. I read somewhere that if you think you’re hungry then make a snack that has at least 3 of the food groups, or has some fiber, protein and then the sugar/salt you were probably craving. I also reminded myself that if I couldn’t figure out what I wanted to eat, then I probably wasn’t hungry and didn’t need to eat. Water often does the trick and we often forget that hunger and thirst can feel the same. I lost another 20 pounds while Jill and I had our blog.
I’ve been 150lbs since I dunno how long, the final weigh in for Jill and I was back in October, so at least then (8 months or so) I’ve gone up and down a few pounds but that can be done in a day so I don’t pay too much attention to that. What I do pay attention to is how I feel in my clothes. They feel pretty good. They feel so good that some of my favourite clothes are to big and I’m not willing to throw them out, mostly because I think if I ever get pregnant that could save me a ton of money. I have this problem though, any one else have this issue?, when I’m shopping for pants/shorts/bottoms the waist is WAY to big, but the thigh is WAY to tight. It’s annoying because I have thick thighs that dont’ seem to disappear ever. Any how I feel good in my clothes still and that’s what matters. I said “this is it” to being fat and “Yes I will’ to getting healthy, and I’ve been doing well I just want to do a little more.
So here’s the problem…
I am still overweight, which means I am still at risk of many disease such as diabetes, heart disease and the list goes on. When I talk about losing more weight friends and family say I don’t need to and I appreciated that everyone has noticed how much work I have put into bettering myself but I want to be the healthiest I can be and lately I have just been a little lazy. I still have been running, but I haven’t been to the gym in weeks to do weight traning-which I LOVE. I have been eating ok, but I could be eating way healthier. So I need to up my game again, I need to challenge myself and follow through. I’ve been lacking on the follow through lately. I’m gonna come up with my plan of action and that’ll be another post by the end of this week.